Dienstag, 28. Juli 2015
Sometimes it is too much. Too much people expect from me. Then i break down. Today was one of that days. Just normal. But everyone expects someting from me. This press. It was too much. I just have to keep it down. Just let it be and just lay one day in bed. Cause tomorrow will be better.
Dienstag, 21. Juli 2015
And sometimes it´s just good to know that you have done it. That you have been there, got to know all this wonderful people. Learned to love another country. Learned to live in another part of the world. But even how much it hurts, you know that you have to go on. It will never stop.
Montag, 20. Juli 2015
The world was going on. Everything was going on. Everything moved on. It looks strange to me. Coming home is a strange feeling. You don´t really know what you want. You´re going to work. Going to school. Meeting friends. Going to party. Just like before. But it is strange. It looks like everything has changed. But one day, you see that it is just you. You have changed. Things, I wanted so much before. I don´t want them anymore. The first days were motivated. So much things I wanted to do. But now I´m just tired. Really tired. Did that much the last weeks. Worked too much. Wanted too much. I don´t have anything from this now. Am just tired. Not ready for anything.
Nodody understands. I knew this. But now you can´t tell anyone. You don´t feel like you have to be here anymore. Start counting days until you are finished with school. Star counting hours until you are finished on work. You just don´t like the same anymore. Want to go. Just go. Go to some place, nobody understands you, but you feel safer than "home".